Mornings for me pt 1

      Okay, so it is known to most, well my husband recently, that I cannot function until I've had coffee in the morning! Period. 

It is so enjoyable to me to sip on a hot coffee while I spill some feelings out on my blog.

I usually am not the first to wake. My very rambunctious 2.5 year old is usually up and my lil sweet bebe also.

So into the kitchen we go. 

Bagel or cereal for you...CHECK

Keurig brewing away...CHECK

Diapers changed... CHECK

Cartoons on....CHECK

Bebe in bouncy seat...CHECK
(yes I really think CHECK in my head)

Ahhhhh sigh of relief as I sip my coffee and start typing.

"MOOOOOOOOMMMMMYYYYY I'VE GOTTA GO PEE!"
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Peepee, wipe, flush, runs out of bathroom (not going to fight over hand washing at 6am)

Ahhh sitting back down.

Crying and whimpering begins.
Bounce bouncer with foot.
Sip, Sip, type, type.

Whimpering continues...
oh lord child


Pick up lil bebe. 
silence
but i cant really type well with one hand...

she looks at me with her boogey clogged tear duct eyeball...

"hi baby girl"

big smiles :D

Morning ready!

Mini Rant...Kinda

Today it has continued to rain and rain and rain. Which isn't a bad thing I guess, I've missed it.

I seriously wonder why in the world people act the way that they do. Its incredible to me how people can let their lives become so jumbled and insane.

How a person can just let their house and home become chaotic. How do you not know what items are in your home or how much clothing your kids have, or that there is literally clothes that are 2 or more sizes too small in everyone's dresser. Or 12 tubes of toothpaste and 100 rolls of toilet paper?

I understand people like to stock up, trust me, I do too. But if you are going to have so many items in your home, please put a little organization into it. And keep your main house clean. 

Don't get me wrong I'm not saying I'm a neat freak or anything but when it becomes a bit like someone is hoarding things....how? just how? 

And on top of that, your not happy? You hate your home, you hate everything about it, but yet, you made it that way, and you are to lazy to fix it.

Andddddd, people are making excuses for you. And you are making excuses. No excuse why you can't give your family a nice, clean, organized home to make sweet sweet memories in!

Grrrrr. Mini Rant!  Sorry.

Marriage

This is such a tough topic for me to express myself about.  Marriage is HARD. Marriage is CRAZY. Marriage is not something to take lightly or half-hearted.

I think some people just go into a marriage having such high expectations. Thinking this "puppy dog" love, and "honeymoon" phase will last forever....
You are literally promising yourself and your life and everything else involved in your life to another person. Like another human being with emotions and a beating heart. Crazy.

You will get sick of this person. You will get annoyed with this person. You will wish you had your own space and your own possessions.

I've done it.

And I'm still doing it.

3.5 years.

2 Children.

1 Deployment.

Months and Months of separation.

I know that doesn't seem like a long time, and I am by no means an expert on relationships or marriage, but our marriage has been a tough one. I'm pretty sure we have been away from each other than we have been together.

I feel like after all the things we have been through and bullshit we have dealt with between the both of us, I am honestly surprised we are still together.

But, we love each other. And we love our girls. And we couldn't imagine them growing up without both parents being together.

I want my girls to know what love is. What commitment is. What giving your entire self to someone is.

Its crazy telling people that I AM MARRIED. Its so weird. Growing up I never wanted to be married, or have kids. I just couldn't picture myself giving my ALL to another human being and them doing the same.

But it happened... and still is happening.

I feel one of the biggest hurdles in our marriage is passing right as I type. Which excites me, and makes me super happy for the future.

This is a fresh start for us, and by no means to I think it will be easy. But, I feel that if I surpassed what I have thus far, I can surpass anything. WE can surpass anything.

Rain.

This morning at about 5ish a.m. the rain and thunder and lightening began and I was worried that Avalyn would get really scared. She was already in my bed. But instead, she wakes up and goes "OH FIREWORKS!" haha. Almost little one, almost. So I told her about the thunder and the rain. She has never seen a thunderstorm before this morning. She was amazed.  And then I look down at lil Lyla, and she is wide eyed and smiling. My girls definitely like thunderstorms. My little earth children. 

I feel like some people get an extra boost of energy during thunderstorms. Or a bolt of excitement. Maybe its from all the energy and electricity in the air. Just like sunshine, whenever I am sick or the kids are sick, we go outside and sit in the sunshine and it just warms your bones and makes you feel better. 

Avalyn is now enjoying some toons while it drizzles outside and is very dark still at almost 8a.m. and Lyla is fast asleep in my bed. So this mama is enjoying some coffee and releasing some blogging power!



xoxo
From the earth children and their mama ;)

Comfort

I am so happy i can feel at home and content when i am at my parents house.  I can come and go whenever. My kids are free to use the backyard (hammock for mommy) and just feel comfortable. I thought when i got married and had kids that, that would chamge ya know because im an ADULT now? So weird. But it hasnt. My old room is still my room to me and my pets are still my pets to me.

Just relaxinggggg. Oh did i mention our house is the next street over? Ha. 

Hellllloooooo NY!

We have just recently moved back to our hometown in NY,  and let me tell you, i have been more busy these past couple weeks then i hav been in forever!

My husband is still currently in CA, and I have been tsking care of a 2.5 year old and a now 9 week old! Biy oh boy, codfee has been my savior!

Be prepared for blogging overload, because it will be happening!

Stay tuned! ;)

Hello lil Rosie Posie!