Marriage

This is such a tough topic for me to express myself about.  Marriage is HARD. Marriage is CRAZY. Marriage is not something to take lightly or half-hearted.

I think some people just go into a marriage having such high expectations. Thinking this "puppy dog" love, and "honeymoon" phase will last forever....
You are literally promising yourself and your life and everything else involved in your life to another person. Like another human being with emotions and a beating heart. Crazy.

You will get sick of this person. You will get annoyed with this person. You will wish you had your own space and your own possessions.

I've done it.

And I'm still doing it.

3.5 years.

2 Children.

1 Deployment.

Months and Months of separation.

I know that doesn't seem like a long time, and I am by no means an expert on relationships or marriage, but our marriage has been a tough one. I'm pretty sure we have been away from each other than we have been together.

I feel like after all the things we have been through and bullshit we have dealt with between the both of us, I am honestly surprised we are still together.

But, we love each other. And we love our girls. And we couldn't imagine them growing up without both parents being together.

I want my girls to know what love is. What commitment is. What giving your entire self to someone is.

Its crazy telling people that I AM MARRIED. Its so weird. Growing up I never wanted to be married, or have kids. I just couldn't picture myself giving my ALL to another human being and them doing the same.

But it happened... and still is happening.

I feel one of the biggest hurdles in our marriage is passing right as I type. Which excites me, and makes me super happy for the future.

This is a fresh start for us, and by no means to I think it will be easy. But, I feel that if I surpassed what I have thus far, I can surpass anything. WE can surpass anything.